Attempt to be everywhere but here.

I am so scared, that it makes me cry. 
I am so scared that I am ready to leave it all behind.
I want to escape- just for a while. 

Love me tender

You have no idea how hard it is to force myself to stop thinking about you sometimes. 
It is so hard that I am about to fall to pieces. 
It is so hard, because I know that I won't have the strength to stop thinking and just be alone and be myself. 
I miss you so much when you are not around.

It's not like I will die without you.

The last thing I remember is watching him go.
The time I woke up around break of dawn, I couldn't feel anything. I was lying on the street, without moving.
The rain started to fall, but I didn't noticed it, because of the tears streaming down my face. 
I closed my eyes and felt your last touch once again, just before you broke my heart and scared me for lifetime. 

Back where we started.

Sometimes the only way to stop people from hurting your heart, is to act like you don't have one. 


So I have decided to lock my heart up and shut it down, just for a while. I guess, that I just have lost faith in everything, that is suppose to feel good and safe. I need to go back to where we started, to figure out what I did wrong, and what I did right. What before was bright and clear, is now only a shadow of contempt.     


This is the last curtain call.. Well at least until I find you in someone new. 

A state of Happiness

For once in my life, I feel lucky.
I feel that I have made the right choice, and the right choice has been so lucky to meet me.
For once in my life, I am able to smile and say, Life is good.
Maybe I am lucky, maybe I am not- maybe it's just happiness passing by.
For once in my life, I think this could be the start of something wonderful and beautiful.  

Long Gone.

I wish, that you could hear all the words Im too afraid to say.
I don't know how to be something you miss, so I was gone long before you had noticed that I left.
But NoBODY could ever replace YoU.


Smile, it looks good on you!

One lonely Sunday

Loveless nights, they seem so long.

I know, that I'll hold you someday.
But till you come back where you belong,
it's just another LONELY SUNDAY.